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Last Friday I went for an MRI of my head- not fun. And to make things worse, when the nurse took me into the room with this giant machine, all she did was tell me where to lie down and started strapping my head in. No explanation of what is going to happen, how much noise to expect, what to do, what not to do. No comforting words, telling me to relax and try to focus on the music instead of the loud banging noise from the magnets in the machine. Nothing. She just strapped me in and that was that. So, suffice it to say, I was a little bit nervous and on edge.

The test last 45 minutes. They told me that they'd fax a report to my doctor within 48 hours, so I just had to play the waiting game and hold tight. On Monday, my doctor read me the report: no abnormalities, everything looks fine.

While everyone else let out a sigh of relief, I cried. Can you believe that? Not out of happiness but simply frustration. I really don't know what I was hoping for, except for someone to tell me they know what is causing the dizziness and we must do a, b, and c to fix it. Once that's done, you're fine! But, no. No one said any such thing. We're back at square one- not experiencing the same symptoms I did last week, but it's there and it comes and goes. I feel like an idiot feeling the way I do without any diagnosis or answers. Maybe I'm just imagining all of this and making myself feel sick?

I have two more appointments next week- Monday with an ENT (vertigo can also be an inner-ear thing. Remember the rolling stones?) and Wednesday I have blood work and a physical scheduled. Maybe we'll find answers then.